Yuck. Smoking is disgusting even if the buzz is good.

Okay.  I recently wrote about smoke almost a week ago and I think I’m about to quit now even though I have around 6 packs left from a carton of Newport 100’s I bought.  Last night I thought I’d buy me a girly girl mixed drink at the bar.  I ordered a Lua Punch.  It has 5-6 different vodkas, orange juice, and 7-up.   I dranks two up pretty quick and smoked over 6-8 cigarettes in between and after them.   I could not sleep because I got a headache and stomache ache from a bundle full of smoke in my tummy.  I feel grose.  I’ve also noticed lately that when you wake up in the morning even if you haven’t had a smoke for a day you wake up with that smoke nicotine taste in your mouth.  I also find my mouth tasting like smoke even after I’ve eaten without smoking.  It’s such a bland kind of burnt coffee cappaccino taste in your mouth.   I think if I am going to continue to smoke I will limit myself to just when I drink hard and 2 smokes a day with taking days off until I am finished with my packs unless I can sell them off otherwise.

 I had a girlfriend once that went to bed after smoking and kissing was very undelightful.  I don’t want to be that significant other with smoke saliva burnt breath, at the same time smoking does slow down my heart pressue.  I feel its fair to say that just because you are stressed out doesn’t mean smoking will relieve stress because it doesn’t, but it does something psychologically.